why now? what will people think? why did you wait so long to tell me? how could you do this to me? why did you call? what are you thinking? why did you play THAT song? what does it all mean? is it right? what's gonna happen? what do you want from me? can things really go back to the way they were? will things change? will i get hurt again? not afraid to love, not afraid to get hurt...don't want to get hurt. i can't forget. Current Mood: confused
|why does every rose have to have a thorn?
so, i went on a "double date" type of thing with that guy-the guy! it just didn't work out how i wanted it to. maybe my expectations were too high. i don't know. hopefully it will work out the way i'd hoped next time, or maybe i should lower my expectations. i do that. make things out to be bigger then what they are...then comes the inevitable let down. yikes. oh well. Current Mood: sore
haven't been around in a while but i'm still alive. living in a neutral state of mind. found someone who would be perfect for me, but due to outside circumstances, it probably won't work. found someone that would workout, but it just doesn't feel right. so why can't i just do what feels right. not care what anyone else thinks. "carpe diem" we only live once. why not make it worth while?...because life doesn't work that way i guess. oh well. we'll see! saturday i get to see the guy that makes everything feel right, so the days are passing very slowly. Current Mood: anxious
|la la la ti da
things have been coming along okay. i'm still really confused about everything in life. i don't understand guys. i want to find someone who wants exactly what i want. what is that exactly? i have no idea. i just want to have fun and be happy. what happens when you find the perfect guy that makes all your dreams a reality, and then you find out that he doesn't want the same things you do. he just wants to be free to do whatever. he doesn't want a "serious" relationship. what is that about? how do you define "serious"? what's so wrong with being "serious"? why do people seem to push away the people who love them the most? he could have told me about his fear of seriousness 6 months ago, before things got to that point. how do you turn away from someone you love who doesn't feel the same way? i guess nothing lasts forever. i have yet to learn that. Current Mood: confused
life is confusing! Current Mood: blah